Demi Lovato Admitted She Just Replaced Her Addiction With Something She “Thought Was Safer” When She Continued Smoking Weed And Drinking After Her Near-Fatal Drug Overdose

“Smoking and drinking led me back to other substances,” said Demi, who previously defended their decision to go “California sober” after their near-fatal overdose.

Back in 2018, Demi Lovato suffered a near-fatal drug overdose.

Close-up of Demi at a media event, wearing a deep-V animal-print top

Demi, who uses they/them and she/her pronouns, revealed during her 2021 docuseries, Dancing With the Devil, that she was rushed to the hospital after having three strokes and a heart attack.

Close-up of Demi at a media event

“I had three strokes. I had a heart attack. My doctors said that I had 5 to 10 more minutes,” they explained.

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“Any time that you suppress a part of yourself, it's gonna overflow,” she went on, noting that the overdose left her with lasting vision problems and brain damage.

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Demi also revealed that they had gone “California sober” after the overdose, which is a term used to describe the act of only drinking alcohol and smoking weed in moderation.

Close-up of Demi at a media event

“Telling myself that I can never have a drink or smoke marijuana, I feel like that's setting myself up for failure because I am such a black-and-white thinker,” she explained.

Close-up of Demi performing onstage

“You shouldn't be forced to get sober if you're not ready,” they went on, noting that this was entirely a personal decision. “You shouldn't get sober for other people. You have to do it for yourself.”

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Demi’s choice to continue smoking weed and drinking alcohol in moderation was ultimately met with criticism not just from fans but also from her nearest and dearest. A few months after her docuseries aired, she revealed that she “no longer” supported her “‘California sober’ ways.”

Close-up of Demi at a media event

“I no longer support my ‘California sober' ways. Sober sober is the only way to be,” they announced via their Instagram story.

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Now Demi is opening up further about her initial decision to be “California sober,” admitting that she’d simply replaced her addiction with something she “thought was safer.”

Close-up of Demi at a media event

Sitting down for an appearance on The Howard Stern Show, Demi shared, “Smoking and drinking led me back to other substances.”

Close-up of Demi on the show

“Abstinence has been the key for me,” they went on, adding that they ended up “smoking so much weed and taking edibles, sometimes 300 milligrams at a time.”

Close-up of Demi on the show

“All I did was replace my addiction with something I thought was safer,” she explained, noting that she “had to learn it on [her] own.”

Close-up of Demi on the show

Demi went on to divulge how they were struggling with their weight while they were “California sober,” revealing that they fell into a “deep depression.”

Close-up of Demi at a media event

“I was hiding in my room, not wanting to go outside because I didn't want anyone to see me,” she shared. “I wasn't experiencing life. I ultimately was in this walking coma, where I wasn't feeling any pain but I also wasn't feeling any joy.”

Close-up of Demi on the show

Going on to discuss the long-term effects of their overdose, Demi noted that they no longer drive because they have “blind spots.”

Close-up of Demi performing onstage

“I still actually have vision problems,” she shared. “I don't drive anymore because I have blind spots in my vision.”

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Demi went on, “A lot of people ask me, ‘Do you have any regrets in life?’ A lot of times I start to answer like, ‘Yeah, I wish I didn't overdose because I have hearing impairment, I have vision impairment, and that was just an awful thing to put my family and friends through.’ But I also have to remember the importance of not living in the past and not having regrets for things.”

Close-up of Demi at a media event

You can listen to Demi’s comments in full here.

If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse, you can call SAMHSA’s National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357) and find more resources here.

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