Chrissy Teigen Opened Up About Being "Basically A Functioning Alcoholic" In A Candid Instagram Caption Eight Months After Going Sober
"I don’t really feel like I fully processed jack and now that I don’t have the alcohol to numb it away, things are just…there, waiting to be acknowledged."
Chrissy Teigen has opened up about her relationship with alcohol and revealed that she's dealing with unresolved trauma over losing her baby last year.
Chrissy and husband John Legend announced the news that they'd lost their third baby — a boy they'd named Jack — in September last year.
The news came after weeks of pregnancy complications and excessive bleeding that had led to Chrissy being hospitalized.
"We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we've never felt before," Chrissy wrote on Instagram alongside a series of devastating photos of herself with John and their son in the hospital.
"We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions," she went on. "It just wasn't enough."
"Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever," she added. "To our Jack — I'm so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications. That we couldn't give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you."
Three months later, Chrissy announced that she'd successfully marked four weeks sober, telling fans that she'd decided to quit alcohol after growing tired of feeling unwell and embarrassed after drinking.
"One month ago, on my birthday, I got this book from my doctor and friend," Chrissy wrote on Instagram. "I was done with making an ass of myself in front of people (I'm still embarrassed), tired of day drinking and feeling like shit at 6, not being able to sleep."
"I have been sober ever since," she added.
And in early January, Chrissy shared an update on her sobriety after celebrating President Joe Biden's inauguration, telling fans that "everything is new and better."
"Just incredible to be here. sober," she wrote on Twitter alongside a photo looking out over the Washington monument. "I know that's weird but it's like...a different world for me. everything is new and better."