Kelly Clarkson Revealed She “Knew” In Her “Heart” That Her Marriage To Brandon Blackstock Was Always Doomed And Admitted She Was “Crying So Hard,” She “Couldn’t Even Speak”

“Just to be brutally honest, I did not handle it well.”

Kelly Clarkson is getting candid about her divorce from Brandon Blackstock.

Close-up of Brandon and Kelly smiling

For context, Kelly and Brandon were married for nearly seven years before they split in June 2020. The divorce was finalized two years later, and Kelly was granted primary physical custody of their two children: River Rose, 9, and Remington Alexander, 7.

Close-up of Brandon and Kelly smiling

Although it was Kelly who filed for divorce, she has since spoken about how difficult it was for her to process the end of their marriage — particularly with two young children.

She’s also opened up about the split in her new music, alluding to “secrets” and “lies” that may have contributed to their demise.

Close-up of Kelly kissing Brandon's cheek

And now, ahead of the release of her 10th studio album, Chemistry, Kelly got brutally honest with Zane Lowe about how she coped with the divorce away from the public eye.

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In the wide-ranging interview, the singer said that before she and Brandon decided to end their marriage, they went to couples therapy in hopes of making things work. However, she soon realized that their relationship was a lost cause.

Close-up of Brandon and Kelly sitting together and smiling

“‘We're trying to figure it out. I desperately want to make this happen,’” she remembered saying at the time. “But I think I knew in my heart it just wasn't going to.”

Close-up of Kelly seated at a microphone

Looking back at the split, Kelly confessed that she didn’t handle the situation as “gracefully” as she would have liked.

Close-up of Kelly smiling with her hands on her hips at a press event

“I don’t know how people get through anything like that because I’m not going to say I did it gracefully. Behind closed doors by myself, it was not,” she admitted.

Close-up of Kelly speaking into a microphone

“Just to be brutally honest, I did not handle it well,” the mom of two went on. “I had many sessions with just my friends [where] I couldn’t even speak. I was crying so hard, even before separating.”

Close-up of Kelly speaking into a microphone

She added: “There were just a lot of now-unhealthy habits you recognize or habits that you recognize that you didn’t see before. Hindsight is a lot easier.”

Close-up of Kelly and Brandon at a press event

Thankfully, as time passed, Kelly began to feel better about the split. Although she was quick to note that her journey wasn’t at all simple.

Close-up of Kelly smiling

“It's gradual. And that's what people tell you, too,” she said, adding that there wasn’t a specific “moment” that she started to feel like herself again.

Close-up of Kelly speaking into a microphone

She recalled friends and family attempting to reassure her by saying that “the end” of her heartbreak was near, but she said she found this kind of commentary difficult to hear in the midst of the split.

Close-up of Kelly smiling

“At the time, you're just like, ‘I don't want to hear that. I don't want to hear 'the light at the end of the tunnel.' I don't want to hear all the bumper stickers you're about to feed me,’” she said. “It's just shitty, and that's where I'm at, and I don't want to go through it.”

Close-up of Kelly speaking into a microphone

The Grammy winner said that her forthcoming album tracks this turbulent period in her life, specifically naming the first song, “Skip This Part,” which she says is all about wanting to fast-forward through the immediate aftermath of the divorce.

Close-up of Kelly and Brandon sitting together in an audience and smiling

You can watch Kelly's full interview with Zane Lowe here. Chemistry drops June 23.

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