ICYMI: Adele is back in the limelight.
Gracing the latest covers of Vogue and British Vogue in her first interview since 2016, the 33-year-old singer opened up about her divorce from Simon Konecki — which was finalized earlier this year — and how it affected their 9-year-old son, Angelo.
“My son has had a lot of questions,” she said. “Really good questions, really innocent questions, that I just don’t have an answer for, [like], ‘Why can’t you still live together?’”
“I just felt like I wanted to explain to him, through this [upcoming] record, when he’s in his twenties or thirties, who I am and why I voluntarily chose to dismantle his entire life in the pursuit of my own happiness,” she continued.
“It made him really unhappy sometimes,” she said. “And that’s a real wound for me that I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to heal.”
“If I can reach the reason why I left… if I can find that happiness and he sees me in that happiness, then maybe I’ll be able to forgive myself for it,” she added. “I want my son to see me really love, and be loved. It’s really important to me… I’ve been on my journey to find my true happiness ever since.”
Adele then recalled a conversation she had with her son when he was only 6 — presumably around the time she and Konecki began to part ways — during which, she said, her “whole life fell apart.”
“He said to my face, ‘Can you see me?’” she said. “And I was like, ‘Uh, yeah.’ And he was like, ‘‘Cause I can’t see you.’ Well, my whole life fell apart in that moment. He knew I wasn’t there… That’s when I started sharing with him.”
Adele went on to share that part of the reason for the demise of her marriage might have been to do with her “Saturn return,” which she said is where she “lost the plot.”
If you didn't know, a "Saturn return" happens when you’re between the ages of 27 and 32. Because it takes Saturn 27 to 30 years to complete a full orbit around the Sun, some people believe that the end of that transition marks a period of change and upheaval in life.